What a "heavy" night last night! I mean, such strong, beautiful women who told their "stories." I was very much touched. I also was reminded, that I am a "Woman of God" and I am doing what his will is. At least trying to. As mothers, we take on so much. Our emotions run the gamut from sheer joy to sheer fear! Our worries are not few! We are busy taking care of others, that we often neglect ourselves in the process. We need time to ourselves. To recharge. Remember why we decided to take on the role. It isn't an easy process to do, but with the help of God and the support of friends, we do it. We love it. Wouldn't change it for anything! But that still doesn't stop us from feeling, at times, neglected, un-loved, disrepected, terrible mothers or pathetic women! We are given the "tools" that we need to survive, to nurture, to be nurtured. To love and to be loved. We just need to re-learn how to use those tools. We also need to take the time to nurture and love ourselves. I know, I know, easier said than done. Maybe we can take this into consideration as we approach the coming new year. I'm going to try.
I am re-thinking, praying about what I should be doing in my life. I have stated that I will be "retiring" as a childcare provider come the end of May, but now, I am truly not sure. I feel it's time to move on. I've been doing this just about 11 years now. My heart has been touched by many who have passed through. I am greatful to have been able to do this! I have met and have remained good friends with many of the parents. My life has been surely blessed! I was also able to have 2 children of my own. Not without complications, but 2 children nonetheless. They are older and have had the wonderful opportunity to have many "siblings" without actually having them! I think they are ready for me to "move on" as well.
Whatever I decide, the decision will be a tough one, but hopefully the best and "right" one.
Let me share a few photos from last night's program. They are a little blurry, but you can still make them out. I have a picture of the tree that is in the front "coffee area." I think it stands 12 feet tall! Absolutely beautiful. Then I have some pictures of some of the ladies who were in the skit. Overall, it was a great night to be one of "God's Women!"
I really enjoyed this program. It was not what I expected. Not at all. But it did put things into perspective. More clear. This holiday season already was going to be different, now, it's going to be just as important! So as you "scramble" around, setting things up, shopping among the "chaos" please remember what the TRUE meaning of this season is. The "Promise" that was made to us over 2,000 years ago!